From the windowsill into the world

I've decided to change the name of my blog.  There are quite a few reasons that I've come up with for the change but it all really boils down to one thing.  I've changed.  My life has changed.


I started this blog waaaay back in the mists of time (ok, 3 years) when my life was very different.  Sure, the core of who I am was there but over the past three years I have made a lot of changes and Im about to make a whole load more.  When I started this blog I was very much stuck indoors watching the world go by and occasionally commenting on what I saw.  I had several blogs going for different things and I wanted a place I could be open about my spirituality and get in touch with who I really am.  I was searching for a way to be out there in the world while being sat at home.


This blog has helped me in so many ways I can't even begin to fathom.  It led to me integrating all the different aspects in my life.  My spirituality, my writing, my thoughts and dreams were eventually brought all in to one place both in the blogosphere and in my own head.  I became more centred as a person.  It also gave me something to focus on and an outlet for all that stuff running around in my head.


Then... I became more active.  My disability improved.  I could get down from the Windowsill bit by bit and became more involved in the world 'out there'.  I had energy to join things, to see and do things which after several years of unreliable energy was an amazing thing.  I leaped into the world with both feet and managed to land if not gracefully then securely with wide eyes and a curious mind.


The upshot of all this exploration is that I was no longer a Sleepy Kitty just trying to explore while restricted by low energy.  I became a more centred Kitty.  A Spiritual Kitty. My spirituality informs so much of my life that I couldnt even begin to separate the different aspects of my life and I really wouldnt want to.


Interestingly, my first ever post on this blog was entitled Who Am I?  And this is what I wrote:


"I am a seeker of knowledge. A playful spirit with a curious nature. I want to know 'why'. I want to share what I learn with others so that they can experience new things too. I think that no experience is wasted if you have learnt something from it. I feel that laughter has a place everywhere and that we need more laughter in our lives."


So, who am I now?  Well, reading this, I am the same person.  I still want to know 'why'.  I want to understand what I see and experience.  Im still most definately a playful spirit with a curious nature and I still believe that no experience is wasted if you learn from it.  The important difference is that HOW I get my 'why' has changed.  My curious nature was kept 'under wraps' as it were.  My writing was a secret.  Now I have gained the understanding, and the freedom that comes with it, that I am a curious person with many interests and that the world should see this.  If I give anything less then I am cheating myself.


My point through all this rambling is fairly simple.  I am proactive now.  I am willing to take a stand.  I am willing to see if curiosity will kill the cat or whether it will just make a slightly wiser Kitty.  This year will bring a lot more change into my life and I think it is fair to say this Kitty is looking forward to it with bright eyes and twitchy tail already.