Just a quickie

Just a little update...

The scan went well last week.  We found out we are having a baby boy!  He is getting pretty active too, let me tell you.  I learned a whole new level of patience at the hospital.  I was desperate for a wee (you try keeping a full bladder for over 45minutes and still keeping a smile on your face) and the baby was going through an active phase.  I really do think he was learning to tap dance on my bladder.  Kick, kick, kickety-kick, kick.  I have to say I was genuinely surprised about the baby being a boy, I was pretty certain it would be a girl!  Im not disappointed or anything but it took me a little while to adjust my brain to thinking about the baby using male pronouns.

I am rapidly exited my 2nd trimester and it has been a bit of a challenge keeping positive some days.  I have some nasty ligament pain that isnt going away and when people smile and tell you its perfectly normal you really do want to become most negative and even a bit, well, violent.  But then the baby moves and suddenly, even though you feel as big a whale, it all seems ok.  Then baby kicks you in the groin and you wonder if they are trying to prevent siblings ever happening.  Am I enjoying pregnancy? Im not sure.  I am learning a whole lot from it and learning isnt always comfortable.  Am I suffering through my pregnancy? No.  I choose not to.  I choose to stay positive (most of the time) and to see what my body has to tell me.  Im very thankful to my Pagan path for having long since taught me the value of listening to my inner workings and going with what my body is telling me but also for teaching me I have a choice in how I respond to my pregnancy.  I choose to walk this part of my path with honour and with a positive frame of mind.  If I can listen to my body and my baby now, then I know I can listen to my baby when he is born.

P.S.  Pagan presentation got postponed to tomorrow.  Wish me luck! It's gonna be a blast.